i'd like to fly, but i can't even swim

as heard in:

villains part 2 from Paul Proulx & Jessica Sargent on Vimeo.

this time, baby, i'll be BULLETPROOF!

acoustic version of la roux's bulletproof.

and don't you ever wonder or worry your head of what i do

You and Me and the Devil makes 3

No, You Don't Know

Tom Petty - You Don't Know How it Feels
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Repeat Offender (formerly known as "On Repeat"): Black Hole Sun

the video would freak me out when i was younger #i still refuse to watch it in its entirety; the part with the girl eating ice cream is really uncalled for# but the song itself is actually quite beautiful. so is the acoustic version:


this song makes me feel nostalgic about the 90s, even though i barely remember it. all i know is, MTV was MUCH MUCH better.

Cancer from KISSING?!

mama was right, STAY AWAY FROM BOYS! well, it's a good thing my boyfriend ain't around. unless he's out kissing and going down on other ppl... which is gross. i'm sorry, i don't mean to sound judgmental or like a southern baptist, but that's kinda what you get when you go out frenching and eating out random ppl. in times like this, with all these newly named diseases, the best way to be safe is to be monogamous. even if you get a fuckbuddy, get ONE fuckbuddy and bang it out safely.

STOP CATTING AROUND TOWN WITH EVRY PUSSY YOU SEE!

and what is it with boys, do they have cancer in their genes/jeans? you can get HPV from having sex with them and now you can get it from them eating out random chicks and sticking it in your mouth. i always thought kissing was gross, up until i did it, but if this came out a year ago, FORGET IT, i would have sewn my mouth SHUT.

On Repeat #4: Piece of my Heart Edition

Erma Franklin - Take Another Little Piece of my Heart

The original, soulful version.

Janis Joplin - Take Another Little Piece of my Heart

THEE classic, screaming blues version.

Mary J. Blige does a really good version, too; very powerful, religious experience:

RE: Two things, not so quick

this is disgusting. read the comments. ok, yes, the case is ridiculous, but for black ppl to be so bigoted is so hypocritical. does it really make sense for minorities to be prejudiced against other minorities? i know it seems like asians get treated a lot better than other groups, which i don't understand since japan bombed pearl harbor; americans don't like to be attacked on their soil. arabs and any other people from the middle east still have suspicions cast on them over 9/11 and that was ten years ago.

i hate how ppl are excusing this by saying, "oh, she's being a teenager," because bigoted/racist teenagers go up to be racist/bigoted adults. then, they use the other excuse of, "oh, there's an asian guy in the picture, too," yeah, and? black ppl of ALL people should know that there are uncle toms out there. for some reason, he thought it would be funny to mock asian ppl, maybe he's a self-hating asian. black ppl know a lot about that, too.

i get so sick of black ppl sometimes, i swear. too damn self-absorbed. and i'm pretty sure most of them go to lee's beauty supply.

Suffer the little children

selma hayek breastfeeds a sick baby. wow, i'm speechless.

"So shines a good deed in a naughty world."

sxephil - he's not sexy, he's sxe

Just some things about this video:

1. I really don't think guys want big tits. They SAY they do, but I think they're being phased out by the ass. Bad news for me since I'm stacked up top, but lacking in my packing. I never got that anyway, why does it matter how big or small a woman's breasts and butt are? The way it's going, the girl doesn't need to be there, and not for that long anyway. And, if big tits were really all that great, Pam Anderson wouldn't have had all the trouble she's had. That goes for any other of those fantasy girls too. Those women are fantasies to men, but then when they want to take them home, they realize that they're just as ordinary as any other girl and then they have problems. Most men claim to be the smarter sex, because they think with logic and not emotion, but they're just as bad as women when it comes to that fantasy crap.
2. Do ppl still drink 40's anymore, honestly? That just pissed me off to no end. I commented about that and then somebody came up behind me and was like, "poor ppl drink 40's" and that maybe so, but is 50 Cent poor? No, I don't think so. Ppl really need to upgrade their stereotypes, y'know, if they're going to use them. It's 2009 and y'all stuck in 1992, trick-ass marks.
3. I also commented on the story about the "wronged" black firefighters. I don't think a test can be racist, but the ppl who make the test MIGHT BE. Even so, why make excuses? Y'know, evrytime I make an excuse, my mother always says, "Oh, you got more excuses than a black man on death row," and as horrible as that sounds, black ppl do make a LOT of excuses. I don't understand it; after slavery, black ppl spent a good 100+ years proving that we could do evry thing the white man did, if not better. Black ppl wanted to learn, slaves died trying to read, and now we take all of that for granted. I write and read without even thinking about it, I can't even begin to fathom not knowing how to do it and being told I'd be lynched for even trying. I tell ppl I like to write and read and they think I'm "lame" or a "dork" or whatever. Well, I rather be that than stupid. Yeah, I still might do some foolish things, but I ain't no fool. Now these firefighters don't want to take a test to get ahead? How the fuck did they even make it this far? Didn't they go to school? Would it kill them to study, to work for and earn what they want? This country judges ppl unfairly and holds hundred things against you before you can do just one thing, you constantly have to prove yourself, especially if you're black. That's just the way it is. Things aren't going to change in "our" favor just because we have a "black" president; he had to work for evrything he has, you do too. Get used to it. America is very racist, but that's not an acceptable reason to fail.
4. Then, there was this comment: "is it our fault if niggers and do good on tests, like really" OK, I think what he was trying to say was "is it our fault if niggers can't do good on tests, like really?" Well, I dunno if it's your fault since you couldn't even put together a cohesive sentence, but this "nigger" knows, it's "do well" not "do good," you dumbass redneck.
5. "Yes, it's a racist standard. MLK Jr. didn't want there to be schisms based on race pro or anti African-American. Saying "white pride" is just as racist as saying "black pride"." I disagree, black ppl need another black pride movement because America does not support diversity and anthing black is either demonized or exoticized or eroticized. Black ppl have been dehumanized ever since Africans were dragged over here and treated worse than cattle, if not before then. Black pride is not a hateful or violent thing, it shouldn't be, it's love for your people and love for yourself in a country that makes you feel unloved. From what I've seen, white pride is hateful and violent since there are white ppl out there who feel like "their" country is being taken from them, even though this land belongs to them as much as it belongs to black ppl, or hispanics, or asians, or any other kind of ppl. You cannot own something that does not belong to you.
6. "thats freaking retarded how this country thinks every white person is trash and racist, if any mass about of people are racist its the black people, they take advantage of the whole racist thing to get what they want and they say the n word to each other which is fucking stupid, everybody is equal and nobody should be called anything like that even if its to somebody that is your own skin color because some black people do that just because they know white people cant do it." Black ppl cannot be racist. I know it's hard for ppl to grasp, but we can't, it goes against the definition. Racism means you hold your race as superior to any other and use that to oppress ppl. Now, I've never heard of black ppl oppressing white ppl or any other kind of people any kind of way. Can black ppl be bigoted? Paranoid? Mistrustful of white ppl? Angry? Hurt? You betcha. But how can you blame them? Some white ppl like to shout out that slavery's over and black ppl need to get over it. Yeah, slavery's over, but racism is not. This is the reason why "black" history needs to be taught in line with "American" history. That right there is racist, how "black" history isn't thought of as "American." How can you ignore millions of ppl and their voices and all of their contributions? Some black ppl play the race card, but I can't think if a time when it's been successful. It is stupid how black ppl took the taunts of their tormentors and use it against each other, but you must understand psychology and understand the amount of damage slavery/racism has afflicted itself onto black ppl. It's like when someone gets raped and they're expected to get over it. It's not something you get over, all you can do with take some time and make peace and live with it. Can you make peace with racism? I don't think you should.

And I like Phil DeFranco, even though I unsubscribed and then re-subscribed, but I think a lot of his viewers misconstrue his videos because the most racist, misogynistic assholes comment on them and I don't think that's what he stands for. I like him actually, even though he does come off a bit unlikable sometimes. He's adorable most of the time, especially when he wears glasses. At least he brings up a lot of discussions, which is good. I miss his old theme song, though.

On Repeat #3

Judy in Disguise (with glasses) - John Fred and his Playboy Band

First time I heard this song, I was struck by how strange it was, but also how I really liked it. It also seemed sexy, but hearing it again recently, a part of it reminded me of Lil Wayne. #way-zay-bay-bay#

Billie Jean (RMX) - Michael Jackson + Kanye West

I really like the original and this is a nice re-interpretation of it; 'Ye didn't bastardize it.

That's Life - Frank Sinatra

If this isn't the EPITOME of the goddamn blues, I dunno what is.

Never Let You Go - Third Eye Blind

I really like this song, it's so stripperish. So is this one:

Oh Yeah - End of Fashion

I could see a routine done to this. Nice "Where is my Mind" rip.

Once in a Lifetime - Beyonce

Saw Cadillac Records, Beyonce definitely was NOT Etta James. But this was a nice end theme.

The Tragedy of Titus Andronicus

I think it's my favorite Shakespeare play, right next to Othello. It's a pretty good movie, too.

PREACH!

Double D Blues

Now, let the church say, "AMEN!"

Thank you, Chris

I thought you forgot about me.

Have You Ever...

wanted to get in a fight, just so you could lose, in the hopes that whatever you lost would come back to you?

saw somebody so good-looking that it made you ashamed of your face, your ugliness?

heard a song that spoke to you or it was so beautiful that it brought you to tears or made you tingle?

This happens to me, but has it ever happened to you?

For the Comedians

"Heard joke once:

Man goes to Doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain.

Doctor says, 'Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up.'

Man bursts into tears. Says. 'But Doctor...I am Pagliacci.'"

- Rorschach's Journal. Oct 16, 1985, (The Watchmen)

But I Wear Polos!

A year ago when I had a MySpace page, before Tom's bitch ass deleted it for no goddamn reason and didn't enough have the goddamn decency to tell me that he did, I would frequently browse through some pages, mostly of my "friends". I visited one of my "friend"'s and in the "About Me" box, either they started with the line or it was at least the second, with "I'm not a typical black person." and immediately, fury rose in me. "JUST WHAT IN THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN?", was one of the things I remember thinking. "I'm not a typical black person," HUH? What does that statement mean? What or who is a typical black person?

Then, a few days ago, Liz was on YouTube watching a video for an artist named Santogold. She was scrolling through some of the comments and someone left one that said, "I like her, she's different from other Black female singers. Like the fact that she doesn't sing typical black music." Again, JUST WHAT IN THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN?! With black artists like Nina Simone, Jimi Hendrix, Prince, Chuck Berry, Little Richard, Ray Charles, Bo Diddley, Andre 3000, Alicia Keyes, Erykah Badu, Gnarls Barkley (Cee-lo), Pharrell Williams, Kelis, Tina Turner, and numerous others, JUST WHAT IN THE FUCK IS "typical black music"?

Now, I'm sure the people who would say a thing like this don't mean to sound bigoted or racist against black people as a black person, but it's pure ignorance that they seem to embrace and revel in. You could just see them filling out job application and checking the box for "Black/African American" in the ethnicity section, then writing next to it, "not typically, i don't listen to rap or smoke weed and i'm not on welfare" or whatever stereotypically shit they think they're distancing themselves from. These are the same kinds of people who, if called NIGGER, would be more upset at a white man thinking they were one of those awful, awful "typical black people," rather then being offended at the slur itself and all the hate it stands for.

So who is the typical black person and why are you so quick to say they're not who you are? Who's a typical anybody anyway? What makes you so different/special anyway? Cuz you dress preppy, learned French, listen to "typically white music", go to Starbucks, and watch "typically white" TV shows? Well, like Kayne said, "even if you in a Benz, you still a nigga in a coupe" so you can be all haughty bourgeois if you want to distance yourself from those awful,awful, unclean, misbehaved, ghetto, heathen "typical black people" whoever they may be, but to somebody, you are just another nigger like the rest of us. I'm really sorry to be the one to pull your coat, but it's true and I don't care what your Uncle Ruckus and Aunt Sarah Jane tell you.

SO CUT ALL THIS BULLSHIT!

By the way, I've never heard a white person say, and I doubt one would in a million years, "Oh, but I'm not a typical white person..."

And I know black people aren't the only ones, plenty of other members from various ethic groups are toxic shamed, but we are who we are and though we may not fit exactly into where we're expected, we can't use that to separate us even further than we already are.

I want to put it all on Lynch, but he's been dead for almost 200 years. I guess he really knew what he was doing when he made that speech, cuz it ain't failed yet. Divide and Conquer usually never does.

I Feel For You